A New Emotion Picture
will always be the sound of thunder and chaos and ruin and death in the
affairs of men and nations until they achieve God and enter into His
final step to peace is filled with promise. It focuses on you as a
creator. The goal is to give you the keys to your kingdom within. They are
in your hand right now, but with everything we try to hold on to, they are
easily overlooked. So we begin this new creation process by emptying our
grasp of everything except our will to create as we were created.
is a quality society holds in high regard. Now our need is to hold you,
the individual creator, in equally high regard. This is not a call to
arrogance, but enlightenment. It is impossible to overestimate our
creative power. If we own who we really are, we return to the truth that
we are infinitely powerful children of God, created by our Creator to
create through perfect love and infinite wisdom. Now we will place our
focus on making that Truth a living, personal reality.
understand how such infinite creativity is achieved, let’s take a modern
look at Plato’s ancient allegory. There is no need to reinvent the
Platonic wheel.We are just going to put on a new tire and hubcap. The
Grecian sage didn’t have the concept of a motion picture theater to draw
upon. So we will apply a little of our modern entertainment technology to
his description of our plight and potential enlightenment.
Emotion Picture Theater
birth you have been seated in the shadows of your emotion picture theater.
Up on the screen, you have been watching the repeated showing of the
emotion picture, “This Is Your Life.” It is sometimes interesting, at
other moments it is boring or commonplace. There are flashes of
excitement, fifteen minutes of fame. There are rare occasions when
romance lights up the screen. Religion also enters the picture. But too
much pain and loneliness find their way into the scenario. As the movie
continues, scenes are added. It’s a long production. Nothing about what
you are seeing gets permanently better. Just longer. Your sense of
dissatisfaction grows until, one day in a mood as dark as your theater you
think, There has to be something better than this. Until you come to this
thought, the show must go on as is.
you didn’t know is that seated right behind you is God’s
Representative. He speaks for God. He has spoken to you on frequent
occasions. Regrettably, you were so busy watching and listening to your
feature attraction, you didn’t hear Him. Sometimes in a moment of quiet,
you heard a Voicenotyourown whispering truth to you. But you dismissed
it. It sounded too beautiful, too good to be true.
pain finally mutes the movie and you are ready to listen. Once again that
same Voice speaks. He whispers softly, lest you become frightened, “What
you are presently watching isn’t really your life, not the life God
wills you to live. I know you have been caught up in it, but if you will
do what I ask, I’ll show you a much happier picture, one that is much
closer to Reality than this poor production.”
still sounds too good to be true, but pain and frustration goad you on.
There is no harm in trying. Hesitantly you agree to continue listening.
How quickly you respond to the Voice’s challenge depends on how deeply
motivated you are. Pain and past choices determine this. The deeper the
dissatisfaction, the sooner you are ready to say, “Teach me whatever it
is I need to learn.” Before reaching this threshold of transformation
you had always hoped that someone would hand the Cosmic Projectionist In
The Sky a happier emotion picture and you could watch happily ever after.
Now you know that isn’t going to happen. You also have lost your taste
for life’s popcorn and soda pop pleasures.
the Person seated behind you can tell you are ready, you are not sure, but
the moment you are, he says with calming confidence, “Follow me.” You
turn around and follow Him toward the “exit” sign. Out of your matinee
you walk into the bright sunlight. The Person guiding you is as radiant as
the sun. The light is painful. Your eyes had adjusted to the dark. He
waits until your vision becomes accustomed to the light.Then what happens
next varies according to your personal need and preference. He seems to
know exactly what that is. He may hand you a book, introduce you to a
speaker, an enlightened friend or counselor. Or He may speak to you
directly. The way the message is delivered varies, but its content is
always the same:
you were watching in your emotion picture theater is your “creation.”
You are the producer, director, scriptwriter, actor, set designer,
projectionist and projector. You are even the silver screen. You are
totally responsible for everything you have ever seen on that screen.
Moment of Truth
is a major moment of Truth. Years
ago when I first heard this principle, it seemed to so fly in the face of
conventional wisdom that I said, “Such an idea is utter nonsense.”
I felt as overwhelmed as any “normal person” would. I reflected on
this seemingly preposterous statement about total responsibility for
one’s life and protested, “Look at all the things in the world over
which I have no control. I didn’t start the wars we are fighting; I
can’t keep the economy from recession. And what about germs, nasty
neighbors and road rage warriors? I can’t control natural disasters like
floods and tornados. For Lord sake, I can’t even control my own thoughts
and feelings. How on earth can I be responsible for everything in my
that moment I felt utterly frustrated. As a husband and father, a friend,
a minister and therapist and as a human being dreadfully aware of my
frailty and limitations, it seemed beyond me to undertake this task. So
having nowhere else to turn, I went to my Inner Advisor asking how I could
possibly take on the job of restructuring my life. The answers given were
custom made for me. Earlier I stated that what we “hear” and the
source of the message, in such guidance, is determined by what most
readily speaks to us.
Trusted Inner Advisor
life used to be full of disillusionment and disappointment, most
painfully in myself. I felt friends, family and the Church had also let me
down. Mark Twain said, “I read the morning newspaper and spend the rest
of the day pleading for the damnation of the human race.” I supported
his cynicism. Fortunately, such moments soon passed. Cynicism about
politicians, societal leaders, academics and business executives took
longer to erase from my judgmental and resentful mind. The only one who
never disappointed me is the one I went to as my Inner Advisor Jesus
Christ. Don’t be deterred if he is not a part of your belief system.
Grant me the same space given to the research scientist who found her
answers given her by a green leprechaun. I am not equating the two
figures, not at all. I am simply saying that this was my experience and I
am sharing from my heart to yours, not dogma but insights given me by my
“contact with the Infinite.”
his help, I faced the challenge of rewriting the script of my life. Much
of what he said is universally applicable. I encourage you to draw from
it what is personally helpful. Put the rest in a “suspense account”
for later use, if needed. Personal references are retained to demonstrate
how carefully I was given what I needed to know, just as you have or will
be given what you need to know. Your guidance lies perfectly within you.
As you ask and seek, you will find the insights and strength you need.
I went within and asked, “How can I be totally responsible for my life?
I find it so difficult to accept this idea,” this is the answer I
me begin to answer your questions with a question: As an infant, how did you
learn to walk when you couldn’t walk? How did you learn to talk
when you couldn’t talk? Your parents didn’t lecture you
on the biomechanics of walking. You weren’t given lessons in phonetics
and vocabulary development. How did you learn these skills?
guess I learned by observation and mimicry.
right. You learned by being in the presence of others who could walk and
talk. You had the innate creative ability to do what you saw being done.
That is all you needed. No one told you that you couldn’t do it so you
can get caught up in what you call “paralysis of analysis,” if you
wish, but that is a long, arduous and debilitating path to truth. You
know, for instance, it takes several thousand subconscious decisions to
take a single step. Do you want to consciously take over the task of
knowing how before you do something?
how does that relate to the idea of my responsibility for the creation
of the world I see? What has that to do with my recreating it? That is a
whole lot harder than learning to walk.
really. It’s just that the part of you known as your ego doesn’t want
you to learn. If you do learn how to recreate, it knows that it’s out
of business. There is no room for the ego in this new production. The ego
is homeless in the new world you are about to create. Do you remember what
I said about standing at the door of your heart?
course. I memorized it when I was just a child. You said, “Behold I
stand at the door of your heart and knock. If anyone will hear my voice
and open the door, I will come in and dine with him and he with me.” But
I have known about you all my life. What has this to do with what we’re
things. First you learn to do what you can’t do by watching what others
do and then doing it. That’s why I requested that you let me share your
has nothing to do with religious dogma. And your early dogma often kept
you from knowing me. You knew about me. That is quite different from learning
to walk as I walk. We will discuss the implications of this later. What
you need to see now is that once I enter your consciousness, we are to
share a meal not climb a mountain.
do you mean by that?
the best way for you to understand what I mean is through a book you gave
your little children. It had a picture of a child seated in front of a
plate of mashed potatoes. The potatoes appeared to be piled a foot high.
His mother is standing in front of him saying, “Eat all your mashed
potatoes.” In his eyes she was ordering him to eat a mountain of mashed
do remember it. A funny book.
was funny because it skewed childish perception in a humorous fashion. I
invite you to eat a morsel, not a mountain of truth at a time. Let me
serve you one bite at a time. Learn one step at a time. This is all that
is asked of you. Don’t make a mountain out of a morsel. I am teaching
you how to move from illusion to reality the easy way: consume one idea at
a time. Take time to digest it. Make it yours.
you don’t mind my saying so, I think a lot of people hearing what you
just said will think it terribly naive.
don’t mind a bit. One may think or say any thing one wishes. I’m only
interested in what a person’s soul sincere desire is. The only agreement
needed is that one seeks to know and live the truth.
there are a lot of fanatical, seemingly sincere people who say they are
listening to you, following you or following God, and they end up doing
the craziest things. Those people who drank poisonlaced grape Kool Aid
were sincerely religious. The men who blew up the World Trade Center
claimed they were doing it for God. How do we know that our sincere desire
isn’t just another form of mindless fanaticism?
need only remember one thing. You
always reflect the qualities of the role model you have as you are
developing. If someone claims to have been raised by English speaking
parents and they can’t speak English, would you believe them? I speak
only in the language of my Father and your Father. It is the language of
love, forgiveness, peace and joy. If someone speaks in any other language,
you may be sure that they were not trained in the Family I formed. Sit
with me in the household of love. Dine with me. That, I assure you, is
all you need do.
grape Kool Aid?
grape Kool Aid. No fanaticism of any kind.
your analogy, what is the first thing on the menu?
course is already finished.
What did you serve me? What did I eat?
drank. What I served you first was related to thirst. This is a classic
example of what I said to you at the outset of this conversation. Long
before you understood what I meant, you experienced what I meant.
Remember my words. “If anyone thirsts, let them come to me and I will
give them water that shall quench their thirst forever. And out of their
innermost being shall gush rivers of living water.” You drank that
I did. It was powerful. It changed my life forever.
you explain how you drank?
see where you’re going with this. No, I can’t. There are no words....
are beginning to understand. You had a lifechanging experience. You know
it was authentic. But you cannot explain it. This is why I don’t attempt
to explain how you will be able to
do what, in this moment, you cannot do. The soul understands a
universe of truth the mind finds incomprehensible. For those
who don’t know your story, how you became thirsty, it is
well for you to tell it.
began this life in a home where you, the church and the Bible were very
important, pretty well in that order. My parents were the salt of the
earth. Dad wasn’t religious in my childhood. But he was a good man. He
had a brilliant mind and great integrity. I never saw him do an unkind
thing to anyone, certainly not to me. I know now that he was spiritual
but not religious. Mom was deeply religious. She was the one who
introduced me to you when I was a mere child. She’s 100 years old now.
And I still tell her it was the greatest thing she ever did for me.
as you know, when I got into my teen years, my testosteroneinflamed
passion didn’t mix well with my guilt sponsoring religion. Feelings of
guilt and what seemed like a total failure to follow you left me
tormented. I’ve often quoted Irma Bombeck, one of your funnier friends.
She said,“Guilt is the gift that keeps on giving.” That “gift”
kept on giving, and I kept on buying it. I struggled to be free of it. I
gave the effort all I had, but it just wasn’t enough. I tried prayer,
positive thinking, repudiation of my feelings. I literally cried. I
cried out to God. Nothing worked.
just expressed a false feeling many people have. You said that you prayed,
and it didn’t work. What happened next proves that it did work. Your
timing was off. But arrangements were made immediately for its answer.
Notice how perfectly the answer fit your problem. I sent two beautiful
young women into your life. They were my messengers, the answer to your
were my angels.
might say that. They were no less than just what the Doctor ordered to
have to admit that I had never made the connection until you just pointed
it out. I mean, the correlation between my problem beautiful women
and the solution coming through those two beautiful women. That’s
really. Just fitting, which is the hallmark of the Holy Spirit’s
answers. They always fit both the question and the questioner.
been over forty years and I still remember their names: Laura and Esther.
Esther was the coowner of a dry cleaning establishment in which I worked
parttime while going to college. Laura was her close friend and
roommate. What they shared with me, the clarity and the wonder of what
they communicated, made their feminine loveliness unimportant. I wanted
only what they possessed spiritually. That may not amaze you, but it does
it doesn’t. But be amazed. It is a good example of God’s “amazing
grace.” But grace has never amazed me. Go on with your story.
they told me about you or God was particularly new. But when they
presented me with their picture of the Holy Spirit and their experience of
Him, when they described the overwhelming power and love He brought them,
I knew I had found what I was looking for. That, in spite of the fact that
I was from a dignified, mainline church and they were from what I would
have previously identified with a denomination from the lunatic fringe of
were you so sure you found what you were looking for?
don’t really know.
think you do. Why were you so sure that Laura and Esther had what you were
guess because it so resonated. Like hearing Bach’s Bminor Mass. I’m
not a musician and I’m not Catholic. But to hear that masterpiece is to
be carried into heaven. You just know, that you know, that you know it’s
great music. It was like that. I had no doubt that these two angel messengers
of yours had put me hot on the trail of what I had been searching for.
you did have your doubts, didn’t you.
had plenty of them. I recall my nervous displeasure with what I saw and
heard at the first church service I attended with them. It was a Sunday
evening. The people’s singing was so “undignified.” I wasn’t used
to that. They seemed to be mixing a lot of party time with their worship
time. People were praising God out loud with no minister or priest leading
them. They would spontaneously stand up and lift their hands as they sang.
It was scary.
certainly don’t want people acting like that, do you? Such behavior is
generally restricted to what your society sees as “more exciting
events” like college football games or professional baseball games.
Then it is permitted, encouraged. No one is offended. But you considered
such enthusiasm for God to be inappropriate, even fanatical.
I did. When I first witnessed it, I wanted to run out, but toward the
close of the service, I was deeply moved by the quiet spirit of worship
that descended on those two hundred some people. It was then, again,
that I was met by the totally unexpected. A man toward the left front side
of the sanctuary stood up. He didn’t turn around. When he spoke his
words were like music. I recall what he said perfectly. I have reviewed
them scores of times. “You who have come with doubts and unbelief, if
only you will believe, I will show you great and mighty things beyond
anything for which you have asked or thought.” That was it. Then I
“heard” inwardly the words, “This message is for you.” This
didn’t end my doubts and confusion. It heightened those feelings. In the
days that followed, I plied Laura and Esther with more questions. When
they had no satisfactory answers, they were the answer. I wanted what they
had. Their theology may not have been all I would have desired; their
love, their power to forgive and heal was.
spent months seeking but not finding. It was a period of growing despair.
I felt like I was in the dark night of my soul. There was the lurking
sense that I just wasn’t worthy, that my selfcontempt was why this
spiritual experience wasn’t happening. In this shadowed quagmire of selfdoubt,
I gave up. Then once again, I was blessedly blindsided. I attended one of
those enthusiastic Sunday evening services. I wasn’t enthusiastic. It
was held in a little storefront building. You said that you invited me
to drink. By this time, I was mouthdry, lostinthedesert thirsty. I
would have drunk out of a dumpster. After their humble service, I remained
to pray. I felt empty. Now
everyone was gone. I was alone in the darkened church and I felt a deeper
loneliness in my inner darkness.
was then it happened. Love, Light, unspeakable Joy flooded my being
beyond anything for which I had asked or thought, just as those earlier
melodic words had promised. That holy moment was an eternity of love. My
obsessions fell from me like autumn leaves in the wind. What had once
blocked the Light of God now cushioned my steps as I walked out of that
church into an emerging new world. To my deep gratitude, I would discover
that this was no flashinthepan, no soontofade sawdust trail
experience. This was a stardust trail. It has gifted my life with God’s
love ever since. In my later struggles, that Light has never failed to
illumine my path.
I review my story in the telling of it, I have only one question. Why did
I have to go through all that darkness and psychic pain before I entered
orchestrated that pain. Remember, I said that you
wrote the script for the life you live. None of that pain
was necessary. There are no requirements, no obligations, moral or
religious, certainly no pain, to experience this illuminating Love.
Soul thirst is all that is necessary. The way is easy. That
is why I didn’t say, “If anyone is intellectually convinced of the
validity of my invitation, let them come....” That would have led to a
rational desert. Nor did I say, “If anyone is religious or
pure, let them come....” This is what you subconsciously thought
I was saying. You said you knew me. And you did, but not very well.
You thought I required you to be free of your mistaken
behavior first. Only then, you believed, would you be worthy
to drink. Built into this belief is the illusion that you need to
do something to deserve God’s love. His love has nothing to do
with behavior. It is related to being, to who
you are. You are His beloved child. Nothing anyone can ever
think or do will change that reality. You know
this now, but you didn’t when you were in such pain. The ego refuses to
believe such unconditional love exists. That part of the human
mind, the insane, separated part, is terrified of such love. So it
erects roadblocks intellectual and emotional barriers. God had
nothing to do with their construction. In your confused
creativity, you built them, and God is not in the business of
removing them. He respects your beliefs, even the false
ones, because He respects you. He waits for you to change
the belief that lies at the base of your barrier. In that
moment, the wall is gone. That is why you experienced a protracted
period of pain. You had invested heavily into the idea that you
were unworthy. It took that level of intense discomfort for you
to take a leap of faith into what seemed to you like an abyss of
separation between God and you. When you did, you found yourself in
His loving embrace instead.
said that I invested in the idea that I was bad. Why would you imply that
it was somehow a personal investment. I never wanted those feelings.
the contrary, you did want them. Just as light is painful to eyes adjusted
to darkness, positive, loving thoughts about yourself, when you feel
emotionally ugly, are painful. Have you not told many people that only
when the emotional pain exceeds the emotional payoff will positive
emotional change take place? The “payoff” for you was this: You felt
evil and unworthy and deserved to be punished. Your “punishment” was
to withhold the blessing you sought. People who experience life as cruel
are always living in the midst of selfinflicted punishment. When your
insanity was too painful, you chose to think differently. In a moment so
minute in time it wasn’t even consciously perceived, you made the mental
shift necessary to experience what was yours from creation.
referred earlier to intellectual barriers.
How does this work to keep one from quenching their spiritual
or philosophic resistance is also
rooted in a fear of God’s love. The ego delights in the
insane belief that it is smarter than God. So the ego
sponsors the idea that it needs nothing from God, certainly nothing
so maudlin as love. God even respects this notion. God sees the
soul of a thirsty child behind all the silly intellectual
posturing. Botanizing over the Water of Life never
quenches the thirst of the human heart. Knowing that the
contents of a cup are two parts hydrogen and one part oxygen has
never relieved a painfully dry mouth. It is equally foolish
in the realm of the soul. It is so much hot air which makes their
intellectual Sahara even dryer. This is its advantage.
Their arrogance intensifies their pain. The threshold of
transformation comes more quickly. The time comes when the
desire for God’s love is no longer an intellectual
option. It is a spiritual necessity.
In that holy moment, just as you experienced, the Light is
me add that the pleasure seeker is not denied pleasure either. God knows
that they too have a soul that can be satisfied with nothing but joy. He
patiently waits. He knows that the hedonist’s problem is that pleasures
consumed to hide the Deeper Thirst have the effect of drinking salt water.
Its consumption sickens instead of satisfies. The thirst grows greater.
When these souls awaken to their madness, they drink deeply and love
greatly. This is why I said that it is easier for the drunkards and
prostitutes to know this experience than the righteous.
sure that what you just said sounded strange when you first said it, and
it still sounds strange. How is it easier?
the religiously righteous see their judgmentprone,
escapefilled life style as somehow morally superior. To
separate from anyone because you perceive them as wrong,
religiously, morally or socially, deepens the illusion I
came to expose: that we are separate individuals, separate from each
other and separate from God. We all equally live and move
and have our being in Him. What wave on the ocean has the
most water when they are all attached to the one sea? What
person has the most worth when all are equally an expression of Infinite
Worth? That is why in the holy moment you just described, old
prejudices and judgmental attitudes disappeared. It is also why the
great load of guilt you carried for so long disappeared and your
obsession with the opposite sex faded with it. They were the same
problem in different forms. You thirsted for the Love every soul
has known from before time. When that was found, the shadow of
guilt was shone away. And the insatiable longing for love
you misconstrued as sexual in nature filled that Godsized void in
see now why I felt such a connectedness and love for everyone and why the
new circle of friends suddenly surfaced after this awakening. I
gravitated to many people who had had the same Light experience I had. We
were Catholics, Protestants, Jews and Nothings, all celebrating life and
the love of God. We were and remain one. I still marvel at how it feels
when I meet one of the friends I knew in those groups over forty years
ago. I may not have seen them for decades. But upon meeting them, it feels
as though we were never apart. Years before we became inseparable soul
partners. What a feast it was! This was in the 60’s when a lot of my
peers were getting “high” on drugs. That’s what led Robin Williams
to say that if you remember the 60’s you weren’t there. These circles
of Godintoxicated people I knew would just get high on the Spirit. It
was an incredible mix of laughter, healing tears, fun, worship and
profound personal sharing and fellowship. I remember the 60’s. In the
truest sense of the adjective, they were for me awesome years.
good reason to celebrate those years. During that
time you were beginning to learn how to form a new model, the
subject at hand. By opening to the mind of God, the Holy Spirit
began to reform your thinking. You referred to what is
sometimes called “the psychedelic subculture.” Even the wall between
that world and yours was removed. Many in the religious community
scorned these children of God as evil. Not only were they not
evil, some were seeking God in their own way as truly as you
were. They were attempting to know reality through what they thought
was “altered consciousness.” The truly thirsty came to know God who
is consciousness. The only thing that was altered was their perception.
I felt what seemed like a distinct altering of my consciousness.
not altered, rediscovered in my consciousness which is one with God. I
will expand on this later. Do you recall the man I sent to you to help you
see the Holy Spirit at work in these psychedelic alchemists?
could I forget him? Dr. Bob Cantor. I
was a young Presbyterian minister then working with a group called Omega
Fellowship. I had been asked to officiate at a wedding of a woman I had
come to know through the Fellowship. The groom was a research assistant at
Stanford Research Institute. I had arrived early for the rehearsal. As I
was waiting for the church to be opened, a man walked up to me and
introduced himself as Bob Cantor. He was very cordial. He asked about my
work and my connection with the wedding. I told him that I developed
groups that were psychologically oriented and were centered in
spirituality. He expressed deep interest. Then our conversation was
interrupted by the arrival of the bridal party and a man with the key to
noticed during the rehearsal that Bob, who was the best man, kept looking
intently at me. Then as every one was preparing to leave, he walked over
to where I was standing and said, “Do you mind if I walk with you to
your car?” I said I’d be delighted. As we made our way through the
parking lot, I turned to him and asked, “By the way, what do you do?”
“I’m professor of Psychiatry at Stanford. I’m presently doing
research at Stanford Research Institute.” “Well,” I responded with
tongue in cheek, “I’m certainly glad I could fill you in on the
subject of psychotherapy.” He graciously replied,“I want you to know
that I am most interested in what you are doing. I would like very much to
pursue our conversation further. Would you be willing to come to S.R.I.
and tell me your story? I’d appreciate it greatly.”
I told him I’d like the opportunity. He gave me his card and
said, “Call me and we’ll set up a time.”
the time came I entered his office not really knowing why I was there.
me point out that this is characteristic of soul level creation. Your
conscious mind could not have imagined the emotional shift your experience
with this man would make possible. You certainly could not have
consciously made this moment happen. It was the result of stepping back
and letting the Holy Spirit do the “script writing.” You were meeting
a brother who was about to show you another grand vista in the world Love
sense from what you just said what perfect momentbymoment guidance we
are given by God. Of course, I wasn’t so aware of the guidance then. I
did feel the importance of the meeting, but as I sat down across from
Bob, I also felt foreign to his world.
you felt his world and your world were different. The illusion of
different worlds was the Shadow about to be removed from your thinking.
makes great sense. Bob’s welcome was warm. There was a light about him
that quickly let me know that I knew this total stranger well. I just
didn’t know what I knew. After a few words of greeting, he asked me to
share a few autobiographical details. I gave him a quick, subjective
overview of my life. In the process I cautiously told him about my
immersion in holy Love. His response surprised me. It let me know that
asked him to tell me about his life. When he did, I found out why he
understood. He was raised in a Jewish family.
His parents were oldline socialists and he grew up in an
intellectual climate of “openminded atheism.” After becoming a
tenured professor at Stanford University, his research led him to
experimentation with LSD25, lysergic acid diethylamide. He theorized
from his study that it might be a possible medication for the treatment of
schizophrenia, but he knew that experimental integrity required that he
ingest the substance. It was the only means of determining by inner
“observation” the emotional dynamic generated by this psychedelic
the presence of his research assistant, he prepared to take a measured
dose of LSD. Lying on a cot in his laboratory, he swallowed the contents
of a carefully marked and recorded container. In a matter of moments, his
inner world was changed forever. Old securely held beliefs vanished.
“I found myself moving through seven very distinct levels of
consciousness,” he said. “When I entered the last level, I was aware
of being in the presence of Total Love. The light was brilliant and
pervasive. I knew with certainty,” he continued, “that I was in the
Presence of what man through the ages has called ‘The Glory of
God.’” He told me that the awareness of life and joy were so complete
that he never wanted to leave this Presence. He wanted to stay in this
cosmic state of consciousness forever. Then from the midst of the bliss
came a powerful, compassionate voice saying, “You must return. You have
not yet fulfilled your purpose in life.” He immediately found himself
back on the cot in his laboratory.
he reflected on this inner journey, he said that he knew that it was
chemically triggered, but not chemically composed. The utter reality of it
was greater than anything a chemical compound could create. It was
greater, more substantive, than any socalled objective experience he had
ever known. Since this was so, he was confident that others must have had
such enlightenment without chemicals.
researched the subject in several major libraries and after months of
search and study he found what he was looking for. Here was a person who
described his experience in clear detail. No external substance was
involved; but it was all there! In his mystical allegory “The Ascent To
Mt. Carmel,” St. John of the Cross described in the 16th century what
Dr. Bob Cantor had experienced in the 20th century in a laboratory at
Stanford Research Institute.
brings us to a pivotal factor in every life. Your newfound friend
experienced enlightenment. Many have used this same substance and have
become delusional, even suicidal. What makes the difference? Motive.
What you do is not decisive in the universe of Love. One’s motive for
doing anything is. Those who sought escape or an easy way out of their
responsibilities found light that blinded instead of illumined. Dr. Cantor
entered the experience with a will to serve and the universe left him
with a vision to live. Once again, you have no way of knowing what you
need do to make a world free of Shadows. You can decide why you want to
act. If your purpose is to give with no strings attached, to forgive, to
love and create, your actions can be flawed but the outcome will still be
positive. Motive dictated by the ego is always destructive. Motive, as an
extension of your spirit, assures success in your quest for inner peace.
Your method to find the Light was quite different from Dr. Cantor’s.
Your motive was the same.
explains what I was thinking at the end of our two hours of conversation.
I rose to leave and we embraced. I felt nothing but love and respect for
this man. He had begun his spiritual pilgrimage from a vastly different
place, as you just said. At the mountain top we had met. We both knew we
were one, not just with each other, but with everyone and every living
thing. Talk about changing one’s beliefs. Here in a center of academia,
I had felt like I was seated in a spiritual sanctuary.
troubles me is that most good, traditional Christians would scorn Bob’s
experience. They would probably brand it as “satanic.” These critics
come from my religious roots.
I am grateful for what I was given in that tradition; I found you there.
But why are they so prone to judge those who don’t hold their beliefs or
adhere to their traditions?
they created God in their image. In their ego confusion they forgot that
they are created in God’s image. For years you did the same thing. The
ego always turns truth on its head. These people would hesitate or
refuse to use the invective, “God damn you,” a very popular response
in the world made by the ego, but that is the attitude of the religious
who condemn those who believe differently than they do. It is patently
insane. Would a loving Father condemn anyone or anything? Would a loving
Creator determine to punish and torture His creations because of foolish
choices that blinded them to His glory and theirs?
Such an idea is indicative of blindness. And religious blindness
resists healing most stubbornly because it appears to the blind to be so
“righteous.” The ego feeds off of the illusion of being better than
others. This belief serves it perfectly. It would have you believe that
your Heavenly Father would damn all His children who don’t believe a
particular theological formula about me or Him. Does that sound sane or
sensible to you?
doesn’t now. But I regret
to say that for years it did.
is nothing to regret. Remember what you have been telling others. You
don’t need to regret a Shadow.
shine it away, which is what happened. What made you change your mind a
clever new argument which attempted to rescue God’s reputation? Was it a
what made you change your mind?
new and living experience of God’s love, the holy moment we have already
talked about. What I had been taught just didn’t square with what I had
been shown. But what I saw did fit perfectly with what I had felt about
you all my life. I saw your spirit in Bob. I don’t know what his belief
was about you. And it just doesn’t matter. That too will be unacceptable
to many people I care deeply for.
isn’t your problem, is it. I was not exactly looked upon as
“orthodox” by my religious community, was I?
what you just expressed will allow you to see what brought you and Bob
Cantor to an identical point; not just at the climax of your journeys,
but where they began. He was an agnostic. You were a religionist. Those
differences are like the peak and trough of a single wave. The swell which
carried you both to the shore of Eternal Love was the same wave, the tidal
force of a sincere desire to know the truth. You knew me by name. He
didn’t. But he did know an identical thirst, the thirst that led to the
experience I made available to everyone. Any person anywhere, regardless
of their beliefs, when they thirst after God, will come to the consciousness
I came to give to the collective consciousness of the human race. That
thirst leads them to me. I don’t need to be recognized as a man named
Jesus to be the vehicle through which one experiences this God consciousness.
do you mean by this? Are you saying that it doesn’t matter whether all
the millions of people over the past twenty centuries followed you or not?
isn’t what I said. There is much more to life after you awaken. I am
always there to help, sharing freely what I have learned when you need and
ask for such help. Remember what I told you many years ago: I will do
everything you cannot do in order that you may have life; I will do
nothing you can do in order that you may have growth.
I desire to give such help to everyone. But my assistance for
learning and mind renewal is only implemented when you call on me. That is
the value of consciously inviting me to walk with you. Still, my consciousness
is available, accessible to every human being regardless of their belief
system or how good or bad they may appear. This is the very basis of grace
which remains honored in word, but not accepted in fact by much of the
I was writing this book, I had no intention of having this dialog with
you. Then when I got to the subject of remaking our minds, I knew I had to
share where that recreative process began for me. You were it but I
didn’t know you would help me understand the process as you have. I’m
grateful, but I’m not clear about some of your statements. I hear you
saying that you are involved in everyone’s discovery of reality.
How do you help an atheist, let us say, who doesn’t even believe
you stated that I was the first person to know that I was every person.
The statement is correct. So, logically, if I am every person, I am the
atheist; or the terrorist, which at this time will be more difficult for
the spiritually slumbering to accept. I came into the world to enter into
union with every person. This, not my temptations in the wilderness,
became my greatest test.
if your love was so great, why would it be such a challenge?
remember that alone I was praying to my Father. Three times I implored Him
to free me from this mission. I asked, I pleaded with Him... that if there
was any other way to achieve what I knew was His will to return all
humankind to union and holy fellowship with Him to do so. Three times I
cried out for release. Three times in the Silence I was given the Answer.
I knew with unshakable confidence that He would never call me to do
anything that would not bless every soul, including mine. I was shown in
that hour that it was the only way. Nothing else would achieve what I was
called to do.
if God is love, how could He ask you to do something that, even to you,
was so dreadful?
it was essential. The record of my Garden struggle is accurate. I cried,
“O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup be removed from me.”
Some have confused the “cup” with my experience of dying on a cross.
As strange as it may sound, I wasn’t concerned about being crucified.
was your concern then? I was taught that this was what your travail in
Gethsemane was all about.
know. That is a common misunderstanding. My dread was that I was being
asked to give my consciousness to every person, to every spirit who had
ever lived, was living then or would ever be born in the future.
is so difficult about that? Since
you had the power to do so, why was it such a cosmic struggle for you?
reason is rooted in the one physical law which, as
long as man confines himself to time and space, operates in the
Spiritual Realm as well. Scientists call it Newton’s Third Law:
For every action there must be an opposite and equal
reaction. What I was shown with total clarity in the Garden that night
was that the moment I gave my consciousness to everyone the Action
every person’s insane, Godseparated consciousness would come
screaming into me the Reaction. I saw that in that Moment I would
experience the depths of the hell humanity had made for itself.
All the illusions of separation that manifested in murder,
hate, loneliness, insanity, war, crime, punishment, sickness and death
I would palpably experience. I would feel separated from God! His love
and peace, His presence were everything to me. He was and is and
forever will be everything for everyone whether they
know it now or not. To be away from the awareness of Him, even for
that infinite moment, was more than I could bear. The vision of
living in the mad illusion of death for that day on a cross,
for the timeless hours in a spiritual tomb, formed the fuel
for the diabolic anguish I knew. That is what lay behind my
cries for release. At last I yielded to His will. In that
moment my mind stood before the Abyss. I was spent and could go no
farther. It was then that our Father sent a host of
angels to minister to me. Now I was fully ready to give to
you what He had given to me.
that why you said on the cross, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken
is. I knew nothing of God forsakenness. Yet in the moment
I gave my consciousness of Him to you, your hell possessed me. I
gave voice to what the human race has been screaming since it first
ran into the Shadow of Separation. The illusion of Godforsakenness
and death gripped my spirit. I could never have experienced
death had I not embraced your illusion of it. In that act,
all the world received my consciousness which knows no death or
separation. And in my resurrection you are resurrected. I make no
demand that this truth be accepted. I
offer it to everyone, everywhere, always.
hasn’t God’s love always been available to everyone?
what did you bring to the human race that wasn’t there before?
brought nothing new. What I brought was a new access to this Love. Always
there have been God’s holy messengers who have brought revelations of
His truth in every culture, in all ages. These were unusual spiritual
giants. You have mentioned some of them earlier. There was Moses,
Socrates, Amenhotep IV, Buddha, Lao Tsu, Zoroaster and many more. They are
my beloved Brothers. Did not the followers of Zoroaster, the astrologer
physicianpriests, the wise men, follow a star to my birthplace? And at
his death, did not Buddha prophesy that in five hundred years one would
come who would not die? We knew and loved each other even then. You do not
know me and what I came to do if you believe that I am somehow in
competition with these great spirits, or that I am superior to them. I am
one with them. I said to my people Israel that I didn’t come to destroy
the Law of Moses but to fulfill it. I came to unite with every messenger of God in the mission of
bringing everyone back to God.
you said that you brought a new access to God’s love. What do you mean
by that, and doesn’t that make you superior?
when you understand who I am. The Christ Spirit,
the untarnished reflection of God, has always been in the soul. It
is the Imago Dei, the image of God, in every human spirit. It is
the part of our Being that knows it is on a temporary
sojourner in the world, that its home is Heaven. The soul of
man has always had the capacity of rediscovering that reality, but the
conscious mind, and especially the subconscious, your shadowland,
are incapable of knowing or activating this holy abstraction.
For that reason I made the Christconsciousness directly
accessible to the subconscious.
the Spirit of Christ with a rose seed, and my human life as I lived it as
the rose. The rose seed is the rose.
However, until it is allowed to grow in the soil of the earth and
blossom, your heart cannot appreciate the beauty of the rose invisibly
present in the seed. In full bloom the rose is affectively defined. In my
life, the Spirit of Christ is defined so that your heart may embrace it.
my union with you, I made this expression of divine love available to your
heart, your subconscious. Every soul had the potential of knowing the
Christ in them. Subconscious confusion was the obstacle. What I did allows
the emotions to love the Rose in them. How clearly it is seen is only
limited by the degree of one’s thirst. Deep thirst always brings rivers
of Living Water. This is what causes radical transformation.
that is the Source of Grace; that is what creates “amazing grace,”
is my gift to the Everyone I knew myself to be.
day I’ll understand what you just said. For now I am satisfied to know
that it is true. I’m sometimes overwhelmed with joy and peace when I
see you in everyone, but I can’t do it consistently.
I know I’m a work in progress. How does what you have just
explained apply to our ongoing work? Specifically, how does it apply to
forming a new model?
is how it applies. People have become accustomed to living in a jungle
of shadowed emotions. The more disturbed are even “comfortable” with
toxic feelings. Each individual is evolving the world they see on the
conscious level from the emotional material and beliefs stored in
the subconscious. These are the product of thousands of perceptions
generated in their development from birth. The additional factor
in the making of one’s emotional belief system are the
collective influences. The universal
belief in death is one example. The latter holds
exceptional power over human thinking because it has
been collectively embraced for eons. Left to your own
isolated efforts, it would be impossible to identify the
innumerable layers of Shadows one needs to face, forgive and
rebuild, as you portray the healing process. Add to that the further
confusion created by the flood tide of feelings arising from
the world of collective beliefs, and the picture becomes even more
hopeless. You must have guidance from a Source far more
knowledgeable than you have within your ego self. You have already
told your readers about their Inner Advisor, the Holy
Spirit. He does provide that greater wisdom needed. When you enter
the mind rebuilding stage, His assistance shifts. What He now
provides will prove nothing less than miraculous. He now interprets
my mind to your subconscious mind in images you can
emotionally understand and use.
my life, I was faced with the task of discarding conventional ideas of
what it meant to be human. I was carefully guided to new unimagined
images, in turn, translated into my life, my behavior
and teachings. When I completed the work given me by God, I had
redefined what it meant to be human because I had rediscovered what
it meant to be divine. Behind that discovery are the thousands of
lessons I learned for everyone. I gave that Light to every heart.
This is why my disciple John described me as “the Light that
gives light to every man who comes into the world....” That
Light, through the prism of my humanity, is all the lessons I learned
and gave to you. They are readily
available for the rebuilding of the divine image of your Self.
Just ask. I will provide the power, but you must pull the switch.
As a youth you learned the scriptures, “Let this mind be in you which
was also in Christ Jesus.” And “Don’t be conformed to this
world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind....”
The knowledge and wisdom is mine. The responsibility for its
use in your mental renewal is yours. As you remember that
we are one, this task becomes possible, even easy. We become happy
collaborators in the renewing of your life.
is the general dynamic behind the successful restructuring of the
subconscious. In every case the specific needs of the individual will
determine how the wisdom and imagery are communicated to them. An example
of this is the woman whose “contact with the Infinite” was a green
leprechaun. This almost whimsical image communicated without threat to
her. Once the intention for transformation is singleminded, the individual
will receive what it can handle and assimilate. Threads of inspired
thought are selectively given to weave into the fabric of imagination. In
time, the discarded dark cloth of old material, once blindly fashioned
into a shroud for death, you replace with a bright robe for your
resurrection. With careful concern for your unique experience, I will show
you how this is done.
conclude our conversation with that promise.
my words to express it, thank you.
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